Two words of the week are relief AND exultation!
Oct 13 - YES! And again: YES!
I won the job!!!
Okay, I didn't actually find out I'd been picked until
Thursday the 17th, but I wanted you all to hear it first thing in this week's
blog: I'm permanently employed now.
That's a first for me.
In all of my previous jobs, there's not a single one where I went into
work without some level of doubt as to whether I'd finish the day still employed. Sure,
most days were pretty good and even the ones that weren't enough to make me
chew my fingernails( well, maybe a little )but when the poop hit the fan, my
heart inevitably climbed up into my throat and stayed there until I was safely home
again with assurances that I could show up for my next shift. It didn't matter
whether I was a good employee or not, especially at MMart, where emotions often
ran high and workers were easily sacrificed in order to keep customers happy - or management.
I no longer have to worry about that happening to me.
Now, conscientious worker that I am, any
mistakes I make will likely be small ones and even should a big mistake come along, it
won't mean an instant end to my employment. Sure, I can be disciplined and should
I really screw up enough, I can be let go, with notice. But that's not going to
happen; I won't let it, as I'm finally able to do a job without fear of arbitrary
managerial insanity undoing years of solid performance.
What that also means is that I can leave my job completely
behind me at the end of the day. I don't have to worry about my long-term
employment, as long as I meet the job's expectations, show up on time and do all
the other things I've been doing over the last 20 years at all my jobs, anyway.
Finally, I can focus on my future, instead of worrying about
still being employed the next day.
Oh and Happy Thanksgiving to everyone, on the official
holiday today - I have a LOT to be thankful for right now!
Oct 14 - MORE good news!
Incredibly, I received more good news today!
An e-mail arrived from the Jim Henson Group, asking if I'd
like to attend a tour a few hours after my arrival in New York next week. It's
an exclusive, not-offered-to-the-public tour given only tho those attending the
Dark Crystal reception later that evening... and guess what myself and a few other
people are going to go see?
The Jim Henson Workshop.
I know, right? I pinch myself, then again just for good
measure before responding with a resounding yes to the e-mail. It's almost
unbelievable that not only will I be attending the invite-only reception in New
York, but before that I'll have walked through the very birthplace of some of
my favorite memories from my childhood. The place where characters from Sesame
Street, Fraggle Rock, The Muppet Show and many other productions were all brought
to life, taken from the imagination of Jim Henson and his team and turned into
reality.
It's going to be difficult to sleep the night before New
York, I tell you!
As a bonus, on the way home tonight I stopped in at a
Halloween shop, not expecting to find much of use. Instead, I found not one but
two missing components for my Halloween costume that I had despaired of doing
anything but creating poor versions out of duct tape at the last minute. It was
a great last-minute decision on my part and I went home whistling in total
satisfaction with how my day had turned out.
Oct 15 - Sports-free TV
Time is one of the things I'm finding myself short of, these
days.
Yet for other people, there's always time for the passions in
their lives and for many folks, that passion runs to sports. I can't say I
understand, not having ever caught the sports bug myself and although I
can intellectually grasp why some people follow one sport and other people
follow others, the mind of a true sports fan escapes me.
There's lots of money in sports, as you probably know; much
of the television landscape consists of sports channels of every variety you
can imagine. The global sports television markets are worth a combined $26 billion as of the start of 2014 and they just keep growing.
Which doesn't interest me in the least, so I'm glad that I
decided last week to cut my cable and go completely internet-only. It always annoyed
me to be paying for so many cable sports channels that I would never watch and
you could never configure a channel package to exclude them in any significant way.
However, that's a moot point if you're not subscribed to
cable TV and just have an Internet package, like I'm going to in less than a
month. Serving up 'channels' a-la-carte is a lot easier when you're not looking
for sports media, whose corporate owners guard their rights vigorously and with
many lawyers.
Fine by me; I'd much rather watch Game Of Thrones along with
a few other shows of my choice rather than pay for a 'basic' 100 channel-package
of which I might watch an hour or two a week from a half-dozen channels total.
I know what I like and what I want to pay for. You can keep
your sports.
Oct 16 - Congratulations, I'm a job-winner!
Today I received 'The Word' at last.
About an hour after starting work, an instant message popped up
on my screen asking me to meet with one of the office higher-ups. Heart
pounding in my chest, I quietly locked up my workstation, grabbed my tea and
headed across the floor with steady steps.
Settling into a chair in the small office, I felt my
nervousness singing like a taut wire and I force myself to relax, as it was
doing me any good. Fortunately I wasn't kept waiting very long as the first
words said to me after "Good morning!" were "We'd like to offer
you a permanent position with the government and were hoping you'll accept,as you're a top candidate."
Those were the words I've been waiting for weeks and weeks to
hear. I savored them for moment and then answered yes as clearly and emphatically
as I could - with a smile.
The rest of the meeting was merely wrapup, though I will
admit that I was surprised at how much I was told about the process and how
little was revealed about how well I did - that's apparently to be saved for
another meeting at a future date.
What I did learn was that out of the 25 people who applied( most
of them not being from our office )only four were chosen as being qualified for
the position and I was one of those four. Meaning that I beat out 85% of the
other candidates through daily hard work, good team attitude and thorough
preparation for the interview which I apparently did even better at than I
thought: I was told that the interviewers couldn't tell if I was nervous and
among other things, really appreciated how well I paced my answers so that the
three interviewers could get as much detail written down as possible.
I'm over the moon, so extraordinarily happy, to have been one
of the few offered a position on a permanent basis. It means that although my
time from Monday to Friday during the day is now spoken for, I'm trading that for financial
security, a non-physical job and a vast reduction in my daily stress levels. Even a bad day at this
office cannot compare to the bad days I've had at work in the past: knowing
that I won't be terminated at the drop of a hat because of somebody else's poor
decision tree means that I can relax about that particular part of my future
plans.
It also means that my evenings and weekends are my own to do with
as I wish.
Now, I can write as much as I want to and not worry
about where the dollars will be coming from, week to week, as long as I manage my budget wisely.
That kind of peace of mind you just can't buy - happy me!
Oct 17 - Wrapping Up The Week
I was still in somewhat of a daze today from yesterday's
heady news.
Strangely, I still didn't sleep well last night although it
didn't really affect me today, not that I'd have noticed anyway. The lid was finally
taken off the office gossip today around noon, when everyone involved in the
competition process was finally notified as to who had earned a place and who
had not.
Happily, the four other people chosen are all fantastic
folks, hard workers every one and very easy to get along with. I'm saddened
that not everyone will be remaining in the office after the end of the month,
but I've made sure to remain in contact with the majority of them that I've
interacted with since the spring, as we all got along really well as a group.
Some of them were new to government, like I was, while others will be moving on
to other positions in other departments and even others will be simply taking
some time off to decide what their next step in life is. Thankfully, it appears
that everyone who didn't get a position already had a plan in place for their
near future and the worry that bad blood would bubble up in the office over the
next few weeks doesn't seem likely.
That's great, because I'm not sure I can keep from smiling
randomly all day long and weirding out my coworkers.
Well after night had fallen, I attended a dual birthday
party for two of my Staples coworkers. While it wasn't a Halloween party per
se, there were pumpkin beers and scary decorations galore - not to mention a
ton of pizza, which I actually had to refrain from eating as it was from Pizza
Hut which tends to mess with my metabolism a little too much. Tasty, though.
The first part of the party went by quickly, as I fell into
a series of games of Beer Pong - I'm terrible At it another way - but kept
playing because it was a lot of fun just trying to score. After that, everybody
gathered in the main room to play Cards Against Humanity, which is always a lot
of fun for everyone involved and really helps to break the ice. It was
frustrating to most of the players that a few of the people there seemed
far more interested in side conversations at loud volumes rather than actually playing
the game, despite ostensibly holding CAH cards in their hands. I never enjoy
yelling at people but I raised my voice quite high a few times( along with several other
people )in order to tell the loudmouths to shut up or put up... and this without
anyone being even remotely drunk.
Apart from that silliness, everyone had a great time and I
left rather happy, even though it was raining and somebody had stolen the
headlamp from my bike. Making it interesting to ride home in the dark on some
of the dark, wet streets.
Some people, I tell you… but still, I had fun.
Oct 18 - Weekend Waugh
Fatigue hit me like a ton of bricks today.
Perhaps it was the weather as well, but I had very little
energy for the first half the day today. I think the stress all week of not knowing
if I would win permanent employment had me dangling like a marionette with knotted
strings. Once I found out, the snapback played havoc with my subconscious and I
think all it wanted to do was lie down in a corner for a while until the
twitching stopped.
I compromised by just relaxing, watching a few movies and in
general not doing much despite needing to finish off a few stories that I'd been
writing for my critique group on Monday. To be honest, my brain felt like a
fresh-squeezed sponge with a hand was still wrapped around it.
Fortunately, I was feeling more energetic by the
afternoon, perhaps helped by going out for a few hours and sitting on the patio
at Moka House. The creative side of my brain woke up enough to all but complete
the stories for Monday, all the while enjoying the summer-like weather that has
graced Victoria on and off this fall.
My evening was somewhat in doubt, as my usual ride to my
gaming group was able to make it tonight, but thankfully another member of the
group stepped up to my request and I made it there easily. Although I was
tired, the delight of gaming / roleplaying energized me and the time passed all
too quickly again. One little thing I'm doing during the game sessions is
providing audio at key moments, choosing music or sound effects to complement
the action in a timely manner and I believe everyone there really appreciates
the subtle touch I bring to enhancing their experience.
I mean, if they appreciate my puns, then anything else is
gravy, right?
Oct 19 - Weather Perfection
It's surprising how much time of the day can be taken up by
the mundane.
By the time I'd had breakfast, got some laundry flipping, tidied
the place up somewhat and done a few other things, it was already lunchtime. The
trip to the grocery store for some much-needed supplies and the afternoon was
here, so I decided to spend it down at Moka again - no surprise there, really.
But what a day outside! The sun was blazing after the clouds
went away this morning, so much so that I rode my bike to the store and back in
just a t-shirt yet still felt somewhat overheated from my exertions. According
to the thermometer, it was 22°C outside as of 2 PM today and I believe it wholeheartedly
as I sat on the patio at Moka. People walked by in shorts and sandals, jackets
clutched under their arms and smiles beaming from their faces to match the
sunshine. Cook Street village was packed with folks all just enjoying the weekend
weather as much as possible and I took it all in as I typed away on my laptop
with my tea slowly cooling beside me.
Part of the rest of my evening was happily spent watching
Wreck It Ralph, which always sucks be in despite my efforts whenever I catch it
on TV. Perhaps it's a good thing then that I won't have cable in a month or so
and I'll have to go to the extreme effort of loading up Netflix in order to
watch a movie; oh, the hardship of not having cable…
It also seems that I've slightly outsmarted myself with my
trip to New York, in that I'll be returning late on Saturday evening… the same
night I was supposed to attend a Halloween party - dang! Silly me, I thought
that my flight returned at 8pm PST, when it's actually 8pm EST. So I'll miss
the party as I'm landing at 11pm Victoria time. *sigh* I doubt very much anyone
will be holding a Halloween party on November 1 locally.
There's always next year, I suppose; third time's the charm?
It's going to be a GREAT week! I'll be going in to work at
my permanent job for only 3 days, after which I'll be flying to NEW YORK as a
VIP guest - yeehah! I'll tell you all about the trip in next week's blog entry;
see you all then!
