Sunday, 9 April 2017

Device Deliveries, Disappointment and Decompression

The word of the week is moribund.

Apr 3 – Lockitron!

It's here, at last!

For those of you somewhat new to the blog, the Lockitron is the first Kickstarter ever backed... WAY back in November 2012, which is four and a half years ago! Here's the updated video, showing their newest product, the Bolt, which replaces the older Kickstarter version that I originally paid for:


I picked up the small but heavy box after work today and opened it as soon as I got home:

It finally arrived, after SO LONG!

I eagerly spread of the contents and got ready to install the lock... and it was then that I realized there was a problem: the KEYWAY on my apartment door lock was altogether different from the one Lockitron had included. So I can't use it.

At least, not yet. After going through the Lockitron Forums, I found a few threads that covered this issue: apparently Lockitron Bolts are only being shipped out with the most 'common' keyway, and the 'Key Match' cylinders for locks like mine will be sent later once they are finalized and made available.

So, it's not all bad news: things are still In Progress, per the Lockitron community forums. I also found out that while there is a shortage of the Bridge units( connecting the lock to the 'net )these are just backordered but still scheduled to get shipped once supplies are replenished.

Guess I'll have to wait another few months, but hopefully not so long that I don't hit the five year mark this November...


Apr 4 – Just Another Tech Guy

That's me.

Tonight I finally realized that I just don't know enough to get an IT job, and that if I want to move in that direction, I will have to dedicate more time than I want in order to get certified in various areas to make myself competitive.

There's a big difference between being the smartest tech guy in an office and applying for jobs located in an office full of tech guys. Up until now, I thought it was just a matter of time before I moved on to a better job as a technical support guy with the government, but I realize that's not going to happen unless I get more training to add various certificates to my name.


Sure, I can fix most day-to-day problems in my office without having to call HelpDesk, and it's nice to be called on by my co-workers for such, but I’m not getting paid any more. I can put together a home computer like nobody's business, understand the ins and outs of the vast majority of hardware issues, and even take a stab at software troubles, but I'm not actually trained in any of that: it's all hard-won experience on my part.

Which doesn't sell well on a resume, or so I'm learning after the last year of applying for tech support positions without success.

So, I'm switching my focus to applying for other types of positions where certificate qualifications aren't the keys to doors that aren't opening to me. I'm still going to revisit things like getting ITIL, CompTIA+ and MS Office certified, but those are going to take place later this year: I must finish my novels first, or I'll never get them done at this stage of their progress.

Too much to do, too little time and energy to budget...


Apr 5 – Hey There, Stranger

A friend posted this video this week, and I think it's an excellent commentary on getting in touch with yourself again as a creative person:


Which is really what I was doing during my Land Mark forum at the end of March two weeks ago.

I was extremely nervous, even fearful, for the 2 months leading up to the forum, so much so that I was suffering from stomach problems that made me unable to eat a regular meal without pain: I was that nervous about What Would Happen to ME.

Would all the things I'd worked so HARD at in my life be swept away, be proved invalid or shallow? Would I learn about such core-persona-altering things that I'd emerge a 'new me' against my will? Would their concepts force me to rebuild my life all over again, as I found the truths I took for granted to be assumptive lies?

Would I still be me, and keep all the things I loved about my life, the loves IN my life, that are the foundation of who I am? Or would the 'me' I loved die, and be replaced with an Other?

Well, the entire weekend experience can be summed up as follows:

Day One - interesting, the concepts gave me much to think about during the entire day, overall I was satisfied that I've learned a few things.
Day Two - much of what's covered irrelevant to my life( I've a great family, job, relationship, goals in mind, etc )so the many 'mending fences' sessions today weren't at all relevant to my life, though they were revelations to many there.
Day Three - leading up to the Big Reveal, I was quite nervous... then I was vastly disappointed to learn what their 'core' teaching was. Rest of day = irrelevant.

Honestly, I wanted to just up and leave halfway through the 3rd day, but I stuck with things out of respect for the forum leader,  volunteers and the other forum members. I saw that the forum WAS making a difference in many other people's lives who were attending. Big, life-changing differences.

For me, it didn't: all I got were a few thinking-tools and months of stomach cramps.

Why? Because I've already done much of my own 'heavy lifting' in my life already to deal with numerous major crisis I've faced, and those all have brought my family closer. I've made myself into someone that others, and myself, Ken respect and admire, through my own effort and sheer willpower. I've read widely, including solid selections of many philosophies, so that I can ask myself hard questions and continue to build myself in positive ways every day.

In the end, I must thank Land Mark for showing me that I *am* a good person, that WHO and WHAT I am are something to be proud of, and to be grateful for having the life I do.

I just wish I could have found that out without the months of proceeding physical pain from nervous anticipation, and paying big $$ for a course I already knew much of the contents of anyway. I'll leave you with this short talk by Alan Watts, which nicely sums up all the above things:



Apr 6 – Throaty

Work's going well, but it's busy. Real busy.

I've been talking non-stop on the phones for almost 2 weeks straight now, and it caught up to me this morning: I lost my voice for a few hours. That's rare, and an indication that I need to step back.

Not to mention find a better position where I don't need to chat non-stop to people for 7 hours a day because we're low on staff, and because that's the job.

Thankfully, I work in a place where if I need to, I can step away. My coworkers are able to take up the slack and my supervisor has my back 100%: we're a solid team and we know how hard we are all working of late.

It's a funny thing though: so many people have moved on, except me, and I'm the one keeping things together around the office for our team. I've got the experience, skills and patience( not to mention a good sense of humor about it all: vital! )to act as the rock against which all our problems break and fade away.

But when I lose my voice, it's a big indicator that we're rather stretched.

Fortunately, I regained it after a few hours and a few mugs of hot honey lemon tea( a sure balm for sore throats! )and was able to pick up things again. Yet I know this is part of the continuous government cycle of Hire Staff, then Keep Them just long enough for them to find a better position elsewhere, and then Start Again with new folks. Retention is never something that's discussed, oddly: everyone wants to keep moving around. It plays merry hell with staff levels... and I can't imagine what it's like for smaller or less team-oriented offices than ours.

My ship will come in, I just have to keep calling... even if I lose my voice occasionally.


Apr 7 – Hark! A Munchkin!

Well, I backed Munchkin Shakespeare this week.

You think I'd have learned my lesson after waiting so long for my Lockitron, but no: I backed about a dozen things on Kickstarter over the last five years, including my Pebble Time, and almost all of them have delivered although many have taken longer than expected which is all part what Kickstarter's about: Cool Stuff, but Delivery Not Guaranteed.

One reason to back a Kickstarter: value for money!

However, anything to do with Munchkin is a different ball of wax, as it's backed by Steve Jackson Games, who have been around since 1980, putting out games like Car Wars, Ogre, GURPS and of course, Munchkin. They really know what they're doing.

So I felt that my money would be pretty safe in their hands, then of course it didn't hurt that the Kickstarter was a massive success from the beginning... I guess there's quite a few people out there who love Shakespeare, puns and Munchkin as much as I do!

Delivery will take place towards the end of 2017, and I can't wait until I get the chance to read some of the puns that SJG has crafted with the Bard in mind...


Also: today was Bus Success Day! I managed to get everywhere that I needed to go, do what I needed and move on again in a total of 3 hours, with perfect timing to catch the next bus each time! I was pleased with myself, as I managed to meet a friend for lunch, then get some grocery shopping done in a home again well before 3 PM. The good timing meant I could get quite a few other things done at home on my day off, for which I was grateful.


Apr 8 – *Sniff*

Despite my precautions while riding the bus yesterday( gloves, not touching my face )I managed to pick up a bug of some kind and it bloomed into full force today.

My girlfriend and I still went to Sidney in the morning, for the second in a series of seminars about the publishing world being given by my friend( and publisher )Ben Coles. It was again a fascinating look into the business side of the industry, and I was pleased to learn that my own efforts to learn about how things work have made me at least passingly conversant with many of the concepts that he presented today. I was left with the feeling that, overall, what I'm expecting in terms of sending out my own book are realistic and that's comforting: I'm not wasting my time or otherwise fooling myself about what needs to be done to get my books out into the world.


I spent the rest of the afternoon and evening nursing my cold and watching the remainder of One Punch Man to the end. It's a fascinating series that I looked into on Netflix and really speaks to the writer in me with its focus on what happens to a superhero when they're the most powerful being in the universe... and they don't know where to go from there.

The final episode was somewhat disappointing( SPOILERS BELOW!! )but I think I expected it, as it's almost impossible to wrap up a series of ultimate power with an ending that either satisfies completely or doesn't feel contrived or clichéd:



Apr 9 – How To Be Happier

In keeping with this week's theme of learning about yourself, I ran across this gem, narrated by the beloved Robin Williams. Miss that guy. He embodied the concept of bringing light and happiness into other people's lives, despite one's own burdens.

Sit back and let his words move you, as they did me today:


If you need more motivation towards happiness, and aren't sure of what may be holding you back, then look no further than Be Happier: 10 Things to Stop Doing Right Now. It's one of the better lists I've seen, with solid no-nonsense advice in simple terms of how to discover and eliminate bad habits holding back your Happy.


I may have dodged a bit of a cold bullet, in getting sick over the weekend, as I have full access to all I need to get better at home rather than at work. Fresh air, rest and temperature control are all things I can't easily get at work, along with extra water and the ability to doze off at need now and then. My nose is already less troubled from the extra attention, and I hope that the next few days will see the bug beat a hasty retreat!

Monday, 3 April 2017

Logic, Lessons and Life Landmarks

The word of the week is indolent.

Mar 27 – Trolling!

I've really been enjoying a new NetFlix show lately, called Trollhunters.

Surprisingly, it's not a kid show, though it is a CGI-animated production. From the mind of director Guillermo Del Toro, better known for such movies as Hellboy, Kung Fu Panda 2 and Pacific Rim, the new Trollhunters is... well, surprising.




Quite honestly, I've been taken with many aspects of the show, which although slow to start is building fast towards what looks to be a fantastic second season. The writing is excellent, building solid characters with interesting backstories and story arcs that look like they'll be fascinating to explore as they unfold. There have been unusual twists with the story so far, with unexpected things happening to the main character that you don't see in mainstream animated shows. While the violence is toned down, there have been deaths, ghosts, injuries and other happenings that again you just don't see in regular broadcast series, but because this is on Netflix there's a much lighter touch being observed - which is a GOOD thing!

Sadly, one of the main voice talents was Anton Yelchin, also known as Checkhov in the new Star Trek movies, who passed away tragically in June 2016. The director Del Toro has stated that while there'll not be replacing it, the series does have a natural change in the second season and has Yelchin had already recorded all of his dialogue before his untimely passing, the series can proceed unchanged.

TL;DR: go watch Trollhunters already!


Mar 28 – Happiness

What does it mean to be happy?

I thought about this a lot over the years, and you could spend a lifetime investigating the nuances of just a question, let alone trying to find an answer or two.


Personally, I think that happiness is defined by each individual and can change throughout their lives moving from the material to the spiritual and all the places in between. It's up to you to discover what makes you happy, and to determine if that particular path will be fruitful for you or not over the years.

So really, anybody can be happy...




Mar 29 – Peaked?

My girlfriend doesn't like his chart, but I find it interesting:


According to Science, these are the Peak Ages in Life for all sorts of things, so you can have a rough idea of where you'll be in, say, spiritualism in 20 years. I think it's pretty cool that it's at least a talking point between your current self and future self, so that you don't get hung up on any one thing wrong way.

The there's this lady.... who's about as inspiring a person as I've ever seen, especially since I can't dance worth beans:




Mar 30 – Assumptions

Speaking of science: why do people think scientists are arrogant?

It's been my experience over the years that when people don't understand something, they tend to try to downplay it in terms of their own experience so that they can feel superior and therefore more control of the situation. This often comes up when dealing with people whose sense of self-worth is directly tied to their ability to understand the world around them and whose balance is upset when it's pointed out that they really don't understand things much at all. To wit:


Personally, I just don't think that people listen all that well. For some of them it's not their fault, because they're hearing isn't all that great. I know that my right ear has reduced hearing for various reasons from my years listening to the world, and I also assumed that since I don't perform well with music, that my sense of pitch is way off.

But, apparently that last bit isn't true! I discovered a free online hearing test that you can take online to see if your pitch is true or not. All you have to do is see if you can tell the difference between some well-known tunes being played without any errors and the ones that are played with slight tonal variations.

Imagine my surprise when I discovered that I scored a 26 out of 27: a nearly perfect score! So now I know that while my lack of musical talent yet, it's not because I can't tell if someone's playing a tune to spec or not. Amazing!


Mar 31 – Spaceships!

Internet is a wonderful place, getting cooler all the time.

As you may know, I love spaceships and starships of all kinds, given my epic love for science fiction( and fantasy! )in general. Thanks to modern social media, it's much easier to connect with other people who have those same laws, and even finding folks with more specific interests that match your own.

One thing about spaceships that's always been at the top of my list are blueprints and specifications, which I feel makes these fictional creations you'll far more 'real' to me. Other people have obviously had the same thought, and just this week I've discovered a YouTube channel that perfectly captures this. Spacedock looks at famous sci-fi starships, examining all the cool things about each design without getting too geeky, presenting them just as though they are showing an informational video to familiarize you with the vehicle overall - so cool!




Apr 1 – A, B and C

I've been sleeping terribly lately, according to my sleep app. I feel it.

In trying to get to the bottom of the exact why( or multiple whys )I've done some analysis of my daily habits as well as mental state. I've mainly come to the conclusion that (a) I really need to find a way to exercise regularly that's not going to cause a re-injury to my tendons  (b) I need to figure out why I experienced such internal pain whenever I eat modest-sized meals that are mostly liquid and (c) I need to continue to stress less about my finances.

I'm working on (a)by starting to go to a local swimming pool starting in a week or so, once the cold and flu season around here wraps up.

For (b) I'm talking again with my doctor a week and insisting on some kind of internal examination, via CAT scan or video probe or whatnot - this just can't go on, where I have to wonder if every meal I eat is going to cause me a sleepless night where I sit up in pain 12 hours after eating it. I just can't do that anymore.

With the finance thing for (c) I'm continuing to apply for better positions in the government, learning the system so that my applications might actually make it on Sundays desk instead of being screened out as I think keeps happening. As I mentioned last week, I have a few people were willing to help me and while it's going to take away from my writing time, I need to move up and onwards: making more money will lead to less stress and that will cycle back into a better writing state of mind, even with a job change.


Apr 2 – Weekend Forum

All I did today was attend the Land mark Forum here in Victoria.

Actually, today was the third day of the weekend-long forum that I attended, as I booked the day off work Friday( swapping it with my EDO from last week )and spent yesterday at the Forum as well as today, which worked out rather nicely, I think. Except for the part about my being friggin' exhausted after it all.

Because of a nondisclosure agreement, I can't get into the details of what was presented, but I can tell you about my impressions of what I participated in today. As with anything people have little accurate information about, there's a lot of misunderstanding and rumours about what goes on at a Forum, and I will admit I was subject to a lot of apprehension going in, as nobody would tell me what would happen there, aside from assurances that I wouldn't be hypnotized or otherwise coerced against my will do to or say anything, this coming directly from my sister who was taken several of the more in-depth courses after this initial '101' level course. I was still nervous going in, but the demographic of attendees is interesting, from all walks of life:


The forum was, in two words: informative and insightful.

What it wasn't( at least for me )was transformative, though many of the participants experience profound breakthroughs and insights into their own lives, which is what Forum was all about, and for that I feel privileged for having been able to attend: some of these folks absolutely needed this to happen in their lives. Sundered family connections were re-forged, incomplete people were made whole and one guy finally got the courage to propose to his girlfriend after two years then and there... to which she said yes. Like I said: needful.

If I had to sum up what I got out of my three days in terms of what I found useful from the totality of what was being presented, it would be as follows: the first day I got about 30% value, the second day 10% and the third day zilch. So I was all eager and attentive the first day, less so on the second wind so many of the lessons didn't apply to my own situation and the third day I checked out mentally about halfway through the day once their Big Concept About Life reveal was made, which to be honest I was already familiar with, having studied philosophy and being a very well-read person.

Not to mention having done much of my own 'heavy lifting' in life already, having examined Who I am and Where I'm Going, which are both big questions from my favourite show, Babylon 5: again, I can't recommend that series enough for all it offers people who embrace it. I've come out of my own past problems a stronger, better person, while still renaming true to the core of who I am in the face of needing to survive all that I've had to. I'm happy with that result, and so is my family... and this weekend really reinforced that truth for me.




If I had to do it again, I would politely decline and ask to read the book instead, though I do value the 'personal touch' of interacting with people, the emotional content of which can't be overstated for its power to affect one's life... though I think I overdosed on Empathy this weekend and will need a little while to recover. I'll naturally be mulling over my own insights that I arrived at from my experience and seeing how they apply to my life, and considering some of the frameworks that were shown to me to use in my own toolbox.

But I've got many other things to do this month, so I'm not going to be dwelling all that long that often: it was an interesting weekend, but it certainly didn't change my life, though again I was moved by how it did so for so many others there.

Now if I could just take as powerful a forum on how to sleep properly...


I'm posting this Monday morning after a so-so sleep, having been mentally and physically exhausted from my 13-hour-a-day 3-day weekend: I haven't been that tired since working double shifts at MMart more than five years ago. However, I think it was worth it, as I've been stressing out about WHAT I was going to experience during the weekend; more about that next week. For now, I'm just going to let things process as necessary and get on with my week.